I stood there seeing.

I stood at one end of the bridge

At the other stood they holding hands

The street lights low

The night so dark

They looked into each other’s eyes

It was the color of love that I saw

And I stood there seeing

I stood at one end of the bridge

At the other stood they

They had killed them

For she was rich and he learned alone

It was the color of hatred that I saw

And I stood there seeing

I stood at one end of the bridge

At the other stood they

They held their child’s hand

And looked at each other while gay

It was the color of nourishment that I saw

And I stood there seeing

I stood at one end of the bridge

At the other stood they

Their son had just thrown them out

They stood alone in dismay

It was the color of betrayal that I saw

And I stood there seeing

I stood at one end of the bridge

At the other stood they

She carried a child and they made merry

She gave birth to a pretty lil girl

It was the color of motherhood that I saw

And I stood there seeing

I stood at one end of the bridge

At the other stood they

Snatched her little one from her hands

She didn’t even feed her well

They killed her in front of her eyes

It was the color of depravity that I saw

And I stood there seeing

I stood at one end of the bridge

At the other stood they

She played with her sort

They giggled and laughed

It was the color of childhood that I saw

And I stood there seeing

I stood at one end of the bridge

At the other stood they

Picked her up from her way to a place dark

She shouted but the beast didn’t keep at bay

Torne her spirits while he tore her clothes apart

And she jumped from the bridge

Only to not let her folks feel ashamed

It was the color of destruction that I saw

And I stood there seeing

I stood at one end of the bridge

At the other stood they

They had managed to sell the pencils at the signals

Had collected a ten chips

A smile so wide for now they will fill

The empty belly that was empty still

It was a color of innocence that I saw

And I stood there seeing

I stood at one end of the bridge

At the other stood they

Went to the vendor with the ten chips

To get a frooti they held their hand forward

He pushed them aside saying it’s for twelve

But ten was all they had

The smile vanished into thin air

Away, looking down they went

It was the color of helplessness that I saw

And I stood there seeing

Who am i?

I may be you, or you or might just be you too

And I keep seeing with a blind eye

Keep hearing with a deaf ear

To what shouldn’t be there and what should be fought

I stand alone at the other end and watch

For I am safe and splendid as yet.

Though i was ready, still the tears fall for you.

I had sailed onto the voyage

Only to see the boat drown

Kept crawling with broken pieces in hands

Pieces of a glass palace that I had built

Thinking of inhabiting with love in there

I was making castles in the air

And someday it had to fall down

I see it failing and it hurts bad

I see the love falling out that we beheld

I see things going wrong and I cannot help

So I wait for the destiny to untie these ends

I cannot take this onus on my head

I saw them holding hands

I saw them feeling bliss

Then I looked into the mirror

And saw how I missed

To be held the way he held her

To be looked at the way he did

To say nothing and still feel it all

To blush away like she did

We had lost it all

What remained were tears and i mourn

I struggled hard to make it fine

But the smiles were replaced by a frown

None to fall back upon

For you were the world

I keep treading this path alone

Bearing the pangs of sorrow

Hoping against the dying hope

Watching the flame of love die out

While the mist of differences make things blurred

You departed while I arrived,

To hold your hand and beg you to stay

All I found was a goodbye note

Your words that said “this won’t work this way”

I crashed into the floor

With eyes that bled

Clutching to the note tight

I cried for help

You were strong enough to tell

Of what I had long beheld

But a hope made me going

That someday we might just reconcile

Till we not altercate of things going sad

But you broke the ice today

You moved forth to things new

And I am left looking into the thin air

With tears that keep falling, calling for you.

I wondered, now I believe.

When I looked back today
I saw it the same
Same like I see it everyday
When tried to locate
A tensed brow on your face
All I see is a shudder and then you walk away

I wonder then should i hold on
To these lose ends
I wonder should I still wait
For things to mend
I wonder if you will ever ask me
“baby, lets get back”
And I wonder even more
For I can do nothing else

And its been quite a while now
Since you left it like this
Since you never looked back
Since you never held me
Since you never called to just say I love you
And kept the phone down
Since you never just kissed my cheek
Since you never were any around

Today when I feel stranded
I have not you but someone else
And I wonder if you will ever be
But then I wonder if wondering now will help
So I believe, I should move on like thee.

I cannot move on.

no i cannot move on

it ain't any easy

as i thought it would be

no i can't escape the essence of your love

that made me feel

i was the one and only

no i cannot move on

from the sight of those eyes

that had tears just to make me stay

and from that smiled that went off

coz i left him in dismay

no i cannot move on

and forgive myself of things that went wrong

and of the choices that proved futile

of promises that i thought to be strong

no i cannot move on when i see that letter

that said i was the world to you

and when i see that tee

that had the picture of us two

that chime each time when sways

with the wind

reminds me of all your prayers

which asked for nothing but me

that watch that tells me

whenever i look for time

that all that was good in it

had left my abode way back when i left

those sandals you got

when you gave up on your shoes

just to see me smile

you didn't care to pay your dues

how do i move on

when each time i think of someone

its just your face that hounds me

when each time i try to love

its just you who define the word for me

when i find it better to die

while crossing the road

than to hold someone else's hand

and when every breath i take

tells me, he was your only man!

no i cannot move on..

Completing the incomplete us!

In the rooms of heart

i open bottles of fragrances

only to find them nil

the lights left me

in the bosom of dark

in the middle

there is this prick in the air

there is this salinity in water

every morning turned into a cruel night

gods possibly are enjoying my plight

they don't seem to love me anymore

for my prayers are going unheard

for they must be least perturbed

as i reminiscent

i gather what must have kept him

from calling my name

for he is a lake

with waves of silences

so whom do i blame?!

do i blame the scene

that led us here

or do i blame myself

for i just wanted times to be better

but never walk out of our sphere

i thought i would take the clouds

in my hand

and squeeze them

but they stormed over me

telling me

nowhere did i stand

i thought i would leave naughty noises

in the silences of the night

but the lull before the storm

was all that was left to my plight

and i am still searching

for the shells of love on the shore

the shore where once we walked

we kissed

and we took the vows

vows of never ending love

vows of life together

only to see them shattered into pieces

that i would gather

to keep alive the memories

and live somehow

to try and change what i did

and to mend the things, for now

i know that only in you can fizzle

the nomadic spilling river of my love

of my life

and of silences that can be read by you alone

and none other

this unseen and unspoken tale

of our love shall soon be read and loved

it will bring back happiness and life

completing the incomplete us..!!

I miss the 'US' more!

there is no one ears

when i shout for no reason

there is no one hands when i cross the road

there is no one to understand

why i blabber like fools

there is no one to say its all right

when i go overboard

there is none i can take for granted

and not revert back

there is none i can ask for things

knowing i will get

there is none i know will care

more than anyone could ever have

there is none i can say will be there

when the times will be sad

there is no shoulder i can cry at

even without a reason

there is no hand that will

wipe these tears off

there is none to whom

i am the most important person

there is none i can share my mind

and feel secure

and so i miss those tables

where we decided of our kitchen counters

and those lamps we though we would keep

those talks of terrace gardens

those false ceilings at CCD

those memorandums of you cooking meals

for all i know is, just to make a maggie

your yes-es to my every erratic bid

your laughter at my saddest joke

your tear when you saw me crying

your eyes which carried all your love

your hies, your byes

your kiss, your hug

that LOVE YOU message

when i went rear

those eyes that led me off

all my fears

those eyes which were always fixed @ my sight

unless my metro left the platform

those eyes whose silences spoke of

our love and our bond

i miss the mustard sauce

i miss the belgian chocolate

i miss the you, i miss the i

i miss the us more

i miss how after every fight we had

you held my hand and never led me go

so why now when i went afar

all you did was to look at me leaving

why didn't you pull me back

to tell me how big a jerk i was

to break the dreams we were weaving

why didn't you just hug me

and never let me go

weren't you the smarter one

and me an asshole?!

i miss the you, i miss the i

i miss the us more..

I end up falling for you!

i won't stay here or would keep there

might pause for a while

but won't remain

for i have no place to call home

and no place that's mine

so i carry the stalk and take my flight

from a tree so full

the wind got me along

i was like a dry leaf

and it blew me all around

away i escaped on to a way

where the harbor i couldn't locate

so kept my feet in the air again

to feel the bliss and do away with pain

sought for a place where no one lived

where there were no ways, no harbor

where i would just sit by myself and someone

who'll undo my ado and shake off the pain

and then i met you and felt life

and then i met me

it was all silent and quite

but still seemed i had comprehended with thee

and i could now remain, could sit there for long

holding hands saying nothing and not feel forlorn

come here and look into my eyes

they'll tell you the stories of my heart

it skips a beat each time you smile

it wanders in your thoughts

the restlessness that crops

the anxiety that i feel

to see you again, each time you leave

i try distraction and different things i pursue

but no matter what i do

i end up falling for you.. 

Accept it or make the change!

and there are times when we see nothing

when it is all suggestive of a blur

and all fragrances stink

and we wonder where we were

when everything around is vicious

and folks seem distant

when the only confinement you get from

is by holding on to your very hand

we wonder what lead us here

cry for a better life

and when nothing seems to work its way

acceptance is what we deny

what i believe of life is

it has to be lived any way

for giving up is a thing for cowards

the braves wait for the benefactor ray

the ray of hope we all call it to be

that shines brighter than Cleopatra's face

and gets with it the showers of bliss

washing away the messy maze

what remains important when the day ends

is the zeal to make it happen

even if didn't work for you today

tomorrow you might just be the captain

so smile away the tears

and kiss away the pains

'cause life can either be accepted

else it can be changed

make your pick  ;)

Your memories haunt.

And i looked into thin air

with nothing on mind

and a face suddenly drew

seemed familiar

..it was you

Had i known little

this is a mere dream

i would never wake up

Had i known little

these senses would remind me of the truth

of you not being here

i would have rejected them

but i am stuck

Still stuck on to the place

where i left everything and moved on

still sitting below that tree

where our love blossomed

Still stuck on to that coffee

which was enough to keep along

still stuck on to your shirts

still stuck on to the love withdrawn

Those pens those games those bills those chairs

the case of my specs

the bag i wear

the bangles the clothes and even the smile i put on

the places i go to

you seem all around

i try to turn my face off

i try to not let your thoughts make a mount

but there is no place that doesn't remind of you

and that is how your memories haunt..

I am still lost.

I am still lost into that world

That world where you left me dejected

When you once saw life in me

That world where sometime ago

We would lay together and kiss

I closed my eyes and saw you right

Right in front of me smiling

You came near and called out my name

I stretched my hand but all in vain

For it was nothing more than a dream

You were so near, yet so far

For a moment it was almost as if

As if I could get you back in my arms

As if nothing went wrong

All by myself

I walked away in seclusion

A tear rolled down my cheek

And I realized it is now but a delusion

These tears hold my pain

Pain of those steps that walked away

Pain of that touch that no more remains

Pain of that name that held my life

Pain of that smile which has now staled

I sighed and cried

Reminiscing those days of spring

When I saw two lovers passing by

To each other they would cling

They sat beside me

Lost in their world

Least oblivious of my presence

Hands held tight

They smiled and remained

How there love seemed to crescent

She laid her head on his shoulder

He kissed her on the brow

They talked of marriage, kids and them getting older

Seemed everything to them god had endowed

How then I wanted to run away

Wanted the earth to tear apart

How I wanted to cry my heart out

For they had awakened the memories of our past

That is how my days go by

And I am more dreaded for the nights

When the sleepless pillow

The broken photo frame

The dumped teddy

That wall which had our name

All stand together and ask me why

Why when I held your love in my every breathe

All I was left to with was to cry

And I lay alone here

Clutching on to my pillow tight

How I wish this night to end

How with time I tussle and fight

Love found.

There was this scent in the air

and u seemed around

a rain drop touched my lips

before it could reach for the ground

it seemed a distant kiss

the kiss we share

the wind played with my hair

the way your fingers take them rear

i danced, i sang, i felt love

i cried aloud to the world

about the life i procured in you

about the love that seemed true

i fogged up the glass

and smiled

wrote your name and kissed

i waited for the dusk to reach out to the dawn

waited for the sun to shine

i would dress in my best

to get his eye on me

and he said baby

'i wouldn't even eye an Angelina Jolie' for your're the prettiest girl i've ever seen

i blushed away with a smile

he pulled me near and kissed

how i wished time to stand still

or to stay a little while before he would leave

i bid him goodbye, left that hand in dismay

saw his face that could put any Brad Pitt to shame

smiled and left i got into the crowd

turned around to see a last glimpse of his

it couldn't have felt any better

when i saw those eyes

still stuck on the sight of me

smiled to myself

i prayed for the love i found

to remain in my life

till i see the dusk and dawn!