Only When I Had Found Love, It Left My Abode.

And when I thought yes I can love

love took a flight and left my abode

and when I had found comfort in him

those steps left my trail

and away they rode

when I had started enjoying the warmth of the winter

curling up into his arms

summers came running by

leaving me forlorn

when each morning was followed by his wake up call

now they are followed by giddy alarms

then we would derive bliss from washing dishes together

would feel elated in just being along

Watching television was more fun

Just cause’ we would snuggle and see

Seeing him drooling o’er half naked women

I would lean away and he would appease

It’s a changed world now

the smiles are ousted by tears and

the little fights by silences

we would still yearn to hold hands, kiss, make love

but something would keep us rear

and from distances now we admire

and remember the happy times we together led

for love we know has left abode

and sulking now would not help!

I Want to Fall in Love!

Life when I saw was young and bright

I had people to hold on to

Things to call mine

And I kept losing one by one

All that I beheld

Keeping silent I saw how fate had dwelled

Tears that don’t seem to end

Relations do

I stretch my hand but nothing remains

Distances creep in from every nook

And I tell myself

Only the day can follow the night

But the cloud seems to cover the only ray too

That is not what I wanted

Being a sadist in life

That is not what I chose

But something that came falling by

And I accepted

For I couldn’t change

The me, the you, the call of the day

And here I pity my predicament

For nothing better can I do

For relations all seem lost in a blur

And a beggar doesn’t get to chose

But I want to see the stars shining

I want to take in the scent of the air

I want to wear a smile that doesn’t fade

I want to dance away my tears

I want to kiss and be kissed

I want to fight and make up

I want to sleep over the phone again

I want to fall in love..!!

It Was All About Thee!

I was walking with the belief
You were walking just beside
But little did I know
Quietly you had abandoned and withdrew
While I was just standing there
Where you said you will be back
Just a moment ago

It was a thing of yesterday
When life lay in your arms
you held me tight
To never let go
And today unconcerned as you are
And cared least to tell that
You wanted to leave our abode

But wherever you go
Your eyes will look for me
Every time when you lay alone
And tussle with your sleepless pillow
All you will see
Is a picture of us together
That you didn’t care to keep

I knew it wasn’t working
And so I let you go
But what if you had tried
And what if we had stayed
These rocky roads would be gardens
Where together we would lay
The seeds of our love
Of a bond that will stay

But in some corner of my heart
This belief remains
We would wash clothes together
Would make the coffee again
For the roads you take
Come back to me
To my heart
Even if not together
We are still not apart
I know when I think of you
Those hiccups would remind
Of the love of the times
That together we led
Though not along
The faith still nests
Of my hand in yours
Of a dream that rests
On the lashes of my eyes
And I don’t let it blink
With a fear to let it break
For that is all with me

Even if this dream
Pierces through my eyes
And my breath wavers like a snake
I would still with all my will dare
To dream of undoing this smoke storm
Of darkness that pervades
For even if it doesn’t take me to you
I will make peace with the deal
That if not the destination
The journey was all about thee..

Spent the Night in Love...

I haven’t slept enough

Not cause’ I was tears in your memories

But cause’ I knew

I was in love

These eyes half closed

Half lidded

Dream of our togetherness

But these dreams have filled my eyes to the brim

And I cannot see

The path that awaits

You and me

Though I am much sure in heart we will meet

And so I walk forth

See through my faith

The path that awaits

And I gain strength

From the happy times

We together spent

Of the memories we together made

When with no reason

We would tickle each other

That echo of our laughs

Still stays

In my ears, in my heart

Tweaking your cheeks

While you lay asleep

Teasing you saying

“yes you snore”

And that blush on your cheek

And that cleft

Made any day mean

A lot more

When we would eat in the same dish

And you fed from your hands

Every bite meant much more

And I would only get through

Till I was stuffed to feel choked

Cause’ eating from your hands

I wouldn’t want that to end

And you would laugh and tell me

“I haven’t seen any girl eating more”

Broken Punjabi from your lips

That only made you sound funny

You would never stop trying though

To see me giggle and laugh

Those names you addressed me with

Special in their own very way

And it gave me the pleasure of three worlds

When tired in my lap you’d lay

Little did I know

You would walk away

Just when I felt insecure of

What In future lay

Couldn’t you tell me I wasn’t right

Couldn’t you just keep back and stay?

For now I have departed from my self

And have fallen in your love

It’s your exotic smile and that gash

Which hounds me in every face

And this night ends like the usual

Dreaming of you being around

And this ever so building up urge

To see your blessed sight for once

For your face is the vision I seek

Your voice the sound I want to hear

Your hand the touch I want to feel

So I spent the night in love and not tears..

Completing the Incomplete Us..

In the rooms of heart

I open bottles of fragrances

only to find them nil

the lights left me

in the bosom of dark

in the middle

there is this prick in the air

there is this salinity in water

every morning turned into a cruel night

gods possibly are enjoying my plight

they don't seem to love me anymore

for my prayers are going unheard

for they must be least perturbed

as i reminiscent

i gather what must have kept him

from calling my name

for he is a lake

with waves of silences

so whom do i blame?!

do i blame the scene

that led us here

or do i blame myself

for i just wanted times to be better

but never walk out of our sphere

i thought i would take the clouds

in my hand

and squeeze them

but they stormed over me

telling me

nowhere did i stand

i thought i would leave naughty noises

in the silences of the night

but the lull before the storm

was all that was left to my plight

and i am still searching

for the shells of love on the shore

the shore where once we walked

we kissed

and we took the vows

vows of never ending love

vows of life together

only to see them shattered into pieces

that i would gather

to keep alive the memories

and live somehow

to try and change what i did

and to mend the things, for now

i know that only in you can fizzle

the nomadic spilling river of my love

of my life

and of silences that can be read by you alone

and none other

this unseen and unspoken tale

of our love shall soon be read and loved

it will bring back happiness and life

completing the incomplete us..!!

You're My North Star!

I am a nobody to many

But why regret

For one thing I know

Someone would never forget

To check upon my deadlines

Of things important and trivial

Would scold me on being careless

But I would be as liberal

For I know as long as you’re along

Nothing I would fear

In worries and in pains

Someone who would kiss away my tears

Would hug me, be my bolster

Assuring an “I would be there”

You deliver a kick to my ego

Praising away all fears

I can stand against all odds

All I need you is you by my side

And if the doom befalls

Together we would fight

The break of the dawn

The silence of the night

And gaiety will have to knock the door

Or I will make peace with your sight

A blessed face, with even blessed a smile

My silences are words to your ears

And never will you question

With calm you will take the brunt of my temper

How I wonder such devotion

You’re the quilt to my winters

Bestowing the warmth of your love

The sunlight in my growing

Completing the me with an us

Every time I walk away

You wouldl keep there waiting

Cause' you know without you I won’t walk forth

For you are the one who will always be

Someone with a forever

Someone standing by me

You’re my confinement

You add bling to life’s hues

I would remain stuck in a fix

If I was to do without you

For as long as you are along

I don’t care of things afar

For you’re my own very shadow

You are my north star!!

A Love Tale!

She couldn’t see

She always had

A hand to hold on to

When darkness would dwell

Her day would start with him

The afternoons and evenings would follow the rhythm

The nights then consumed in his dreams

She held his hand when friends left path

And sought his shoulder

When gloom would befall

But when it came to love

She couldn’t see

What his eyes beheld

And his touch would mean

She went afar not realising he was the one

Who had always wanted to color his life

With the hues of their love

And to give her all he had

He would keep the hope alive

Not scared that these dreams might get shattered

Like a piece of glass

And would only hurt his feet

When alone in the nights he would walk

Feeling tormented and torn apart

He would still be around

Would be her bolster

Not caring about the hurricane

That might extinguish

The flame of his hope

His geared spirits

Only after having struggled around

In the quest of love when she settled at last

A figure appeared standing forth

It was him still waiting for her, to cast

The magic of his love that he always beheld

The spirit of faith he had held so far

She could read those eyes now

Only begging for her love

She could sense that touch now

Yearning to ignite the flame of their love

She could see how he had descended

Slowly and graciously

On the wings of love

That yearned to carry her

To a world that belonged to their love

With a tear in her eye

She hugged him tight

With warm caresses

She apologised

For having overlooked

What has always been by her side

They promised each other of togetherness

Even if the seasons changed style

Or if a new tune life would ignite

Rivers may change course

And rain shall forget her notes

But to remain in each other’s embrace

Was all they sought from life

Today they remain holding hands

Feeling content and fortunate

For life has bestowed their paths

With pearls of love and solace

And this should be the trajectory

Of all love tales

Only if we realize the love that awaits

And let it in our lives

With arms widespread

And hatred shall be a thing of past

Only happiness would dwell!