Wish you were here..

Today while travelling back to home

That song suddenly played

The one you would sing to me all the time

While engulfed in your arms I laid

I blinked my eye to not let tears make their way

My cheeks then felt a sudden wave of air

Reminding me of the way you would caress my face

How I wished, you were here..

Every time I visit those places and see

People holding hands and making merry

I sit back and time pushes me

To the times when our laughs echoed the streets

To the times we celebrated my smallest victory

To the times when we ate in the same dish

To the times, I thought it will always persist

As I walked down the road

And it ended at my place

How I wished it was yours and not mine

When I reached back and undressed

While my hands moved around

How I wished they were yours and not mine

While I settled to have food

And mom got American Chop suey

I settled back and moved rear

To hold back a tear that struggled to find its way

How I wished, you were here..

I reached out to the bed

With the phone in hand I fiddled badly

Typed your number to call but didn't make

Wondering, I was supposed to act angry

I typed a text, congratulated and kept it away

I peered from the corner of my eye

To see if a text from your side appears

But there came no reply

And I broke down clutching the pillow tight

For it was already too hard to bear

With our pictures bookmarked

I smiled seeing the highest likes

That tear finally made its path clear

And while I struggled to sleep

That tear failed to wash your sight

And I kept wishing, wishing you were here..

Wish you were here..

D.E.J.E.C.T.I.O.N

All that was left over

Were the pages where you wrote

I was the prettiest woman

Of your life, you swore

But today when I look back

All that they seem

Is a playful wish that you knew

Will never come into being

But I was living a dream

Of our being together

I stood against all odds

My love didn’t wither

Aware of the uncertainties

I remained there still

Dreaming with eyes open

I wrestled every glitch

But it ended, it had to end

And you went, you had to go

To make way for YOUR things

OUR love was made a scapegoat

I cried, I shouted

I questioned your stand

Your answer was the same

“You alone are the one I want to talk to”

While with ease you left my hand

I waited for a while

For you to realize

You took me for granted

And now you bear the price

For I am walking away

Rendering this heart to someone

Who will see my love

And will reciprocate it with tons

Though I tried my way out

To get things back in fashion

But then I see you moving forth

Abandoning me to dejection

Now you expect things to get fine

For you want them to be your way

But since you dejected my love then ....

 So, dejection is what you’ll have to face.

You wished i was around..!

No matter how much the distance separates

And though our accord has surpassed the lease

Of all the times you wash your clothes alone

And end up putting in the washing powder less

I would like to believe & make peace

That you wish, I was around

I know you thought of time being wrong

You were more unsure than you could be strong

The better things in your life have taken a toll over me

But of all the times when you sit down tired

Walk towards the kitchen to make your coffee

I would like to believe & make peace

That you wish, I was around

Of all our pictures on facebook

When you would maintain the count of likes

Today when I am no more there in them

Though someone else is

While you hold her waist and get done a click

Something from those memories would hound
I would like to believe & make peace

That you wish, I was around

In the cold winter afternoon

When the blanket comes off

And the cold hits your bare feet

And you would lay there thinking I will envelope you

But while you lay alone, with a bare bosom

I would like to believe & make peace

That you wish, I was around

When you drive down home from work

And pick your phone to dial a number

There seems nobody you want to talk to

And with tsunamis in your eyes you struggle

Put the phone at bay and look at the watch

It reminds you of the times you said

“This promises a great day, so when with you

This is what I would put on”

Choked you look outside in thin air

I would like to believe & make peace

That you wished, I was around

Our favourite songs, our favourite movies

The places we would visit

The American chop suey

The Friends on star world

The in numerous pictures

Everything whenever you would try to shun

I would like to believe & make peace

That you wish, I was around

Today when you text and tell me things

Of how things are moving and how occupied things were

I hold back my tears and act all good

And show no sign of despair

I only keep praying for your success

No matter you aren’t there

I still hope against the hope

That the day things will settle

And you achieve by leaps and bounds

The toast that you raise to celebrate

Will seem garbled and half-done

I would like to believe & make peace

That you wish, I was around

Title & frame courtesy : Neha Choudhary

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